The Conflict of Trust.

Here on Thursday’s blog, we’re talking about finding the right person to trust. So I’ve been having this trust issue, and it’s been an issue that I’ve had for years, but now that my life has become a lot busier than normal, I’m coming to terms with the fact that I have to face this fear.

 One of my trust fears, interestingly enough is surrounding my laundry. I believe laundry is such an intimate thing that someone does In their home and I guess I have this fear of having someone I don't know handle that...I don’t believe that it’s a phobia, but when I visit my parents in the South I really looked forward to going to the laundry room and washing my clothes. The washing, drying, and folding of these intimate items feels like a little ritual. 

Today I dropped my clothes off at the dry cleaners and got some alterations. And then it dawned on me…If I can drop off and trust my items with my local tailor Ms. Kim, then why can’t I drop off my laundry with someone to get washed? I realized that just as Ms. Kim is a master of adding, removing, and altering items, I too need to master the art of adjusting my mindsets to serve my current life circumstances. I realized that If I continued to let little fears of trust hold me back I wouldn’t be where I am today. After all, I wouldn’t be standing in the mirror trusting the amazing Ms. Kim to pin my pants to the exact height I wanted if I wasn’t courageous enough to try her shop in the first place. I believe trust is not singular but rather a collection of courage, faith, and conviction. I am going to take a step forward (and towards some clean laundry) and remove this roadblock I’ve placed for myself.

I challenge you, yes you dear reader to take 5 minutes and ponder on what small roadblocks you have placed in your life and write them down. Maybe it's 1 big item or a list of a few big & small. Trust in yourself to overcome these fears and create actionable steps on how you can remove them. The reward of trusting is worth the risk. The reward of learning from our mistakes can alter the course of our life and that is worth the risk! Let’s all strive to build trust in others but most importantly in ourselves. Let’s throw doubts and fear aside so we can work towards our most authentic, fulfilled, and truest selves. 

Love, Ashley