How to know when you have truly forgiven
How to know when you have truly Forgiven.
Okay, I finally did something that I have been planning to do for about two years now. Its nothing major life-changing (or so, I thought)... its something that I have been desiring to do, and I finally took the plunge, yeah I wish it was a plunge literally into a deep cold pool because, on that day, It must have been one of the hottest days of this summer, I walked about 8 blocks in workout wear from Chelsea into the flatiron district and I was not wearing any sunglasses or a sunhat to protect my skin, which is a big no-no for me. The older I have gotten the more I am aware of my aging skin.
Back to the plunge, as I approached the building, I said to myself is this something I really want to do… I reasoned with myself and said the pair I choose to buy must be on sale. I went into the store and it looked extremely empty because of the layout the shoes bordered the wall and in the middle of the floor there was nothing, I think their setup was based on theft protection for sure, I don’t blame them, these shoes are expensive, back to the story… The most desirable shoes were in the far back it was at least 10ft from the entrance, I said to myself again, If I’m going to walk that far, there is no way we will walk out of here without a shoe. Finally reaching the back, was able to have a nice young lady assist me on this journey, to be honest, I think I drove her crazy with all of my selections, she stayed calm and cool through the process, and had her pull 5 different styles in 2 different sizes, everything that I truly liked, they did not have in my size. However, I found my first pair after 4 different try-ons, then I found the 2nd pair, yes the second pair, I was reliant to buy for a moment because they looked too much like what my ex wore except for the soles but then I started to think about the past 2 years and how much, forgiveness, I have allowed into my heart and mind. My forgiveness and style plans overrode this memory that I first thought was a bad trigger but it actually was a positive one because it showed me that I had truly forgiven him. So, here I am now enjoying my 2nd pair the most because they truly go with my everyday style, I love wearing them with dresses. Do you see the platform heel it reminds me that I’m an overcomer, when I forgave it took my life to a higher level, I now see the act of forgiveness as a level up. When we’re able to truly forgive, we can only then move forward, think and operate at a whole new level.
Love, Ashley